I was never the type of person that reveals my feelings. If I ever show them trully to you either you are really special or the did something really messed up.
I can say I love you in a fraction of seconds, I've said them to a lot of people, some of them with feelings envolved, but did I ever really loved them? I sometimes try to convence myself that I feel something, that I'm hurt, that I loved passionatly, that I miss and I cry for someone, but very few times are those true. I fake because I want to feel them, I want to be hurt, to love and be loved.
I've said them trully to my family, of course, and I thought I meant it to some others, but when I thought about it I realise things weren't that clear.
sometimes I really think I'm heartless